Thursday, August 21, 2008

Talking myself into a blog

So I've got this defunct blog that I'm not sure what to do with. Do I admit that blogging isn't for me and put it out of its misery? Is that better or worse than only posting once a month, if that?

For the past two months, I have purposefully not posted. I even had several ideas for posts recently and just let them die. I had "almost decided" to quit. It basically came down to a few things:

  1. I think maybe about two people read this blog. Why bother spending time typing out my thoughts and anecdotes in a semi-literate way when I could just tell those people directly?

  2. I'm not a born blogger. I tend to agonize over posts for some reason. Perhaps I'm going overboard because I hate the notion that nothing on the Internet needs to edited. Plus, I get blogger's block. A lot. I've tried all the writing prompts that are out there, but that always feels so forced and phony. I just don't find much in my life worth noting, and that makes for a pretty boring blog.

  3. So many people are so much better at it. Fucking EVERYONE has a blog now. And a few of those people are really great at it. They write about their lives or various specific topics with humor and wit and insight, and they take often beautiful photos to go along with it. I feel silly and lame in comparison. Skilled bloggers can take a mundane moment, something I would deem "not worth noting" and turn it into a funny or moving or fascinating story that other people in front of their computers are interested in reading. I admire that. That's what I was going for on this blog in the first place, but I'm not sure I ever really hit it.
But maybe I'm overthinking the whole thing. Maybe it's just a fucking blog and I should just go with the flow. Post when I want, whatever I want. Stop worrying about whether it's "good" or who's going to read it. Yeah, maybe so.